‘Never Be Me’ unfolds as a dark pop anthem that creates a twilight atmosphere with gloomy synth textures and magnificent beats. X-ENA is torn between longing and self-doubt as she reflects in gentle yet intense tones on where desire turns into projection and the illusion never becomes tangible.
The song’s basically about fighting for authenticity: you wanna be close to someone, but you know that the image you have of them is only a construct. You know that feeling of emptiness, of being let down, and always fantasising about what could be? Well, that shows that a real meeting needs more than just wanting it. Those who idealise lose sight of what really exists.
‘Never Be Me’ reveals the dualism of subject and object in interpersonal attraction. When you’re in a situation like this, you’re really being challenged in terms of how you see yourself. You’re really stretching yourself and your ability to let go of preconceived ideas. Only beyond this illusion can real closeness arise. Perhaps X-ENA’s best release to date.

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